I AM NOT A LAB RAT

  

I HAVE CHOSEN TO GO THROUGH CHEMO

I am tired of the pain of surgery and all of the needles lines injections hoses in and out.

 

I am tired of the head aches the confusion getting mixed up not knowing weather I am in the Pleasant Grove cancer center or Salt Lake cancer center Number two.

 

I can't remember why all of the machines  are used on me over and over.

I feel bad that my daughters are here instead of with their family I am so glad my daughters are here to stay every night.

 

I am afraid of what will happen I always said that I would never go through chemo I need to do chemo I need to do this. I can't leave my family I love my family.

I am sad I am sad I am sad.  I need to be happy. I hope that I can be happy.

I  need to clean the counter and in the bathroom. I am too tired

 

I agreed to get better.

I hope that I will get better.

I hope that I can get better.

I haven't seen my little grand kids in a long time

I hope that they remember me

 

Tomorrow will be a better day.